Sisyphus

2017

 

This is the beginning. I know where I want to be. I’m confident I will get there. Each set-back is just another experience to learn from. It brings me closer to it.

 

As the obstacles begin to mount, I begin to see it’s a little further than I first imagined. I accept it’s going to take more time to get there than I once thought.

 

My new understanding motivates me. I push myself harder. Small steps turn into big strides. I get closer to it than I’ve ever been. I am almost there, but still I falter.

 

I know this is the best I have ever been. I can’t understand why this is not working. It makes me question you. Are you here for me or are you another obstacle to overcome? The constant defeat breaks me down. It forces me to admit I cannot get there without you.

 

I reach out to you, but you don’t see me. Now stagnant, I can only watch as you get there. You made it look so effortless. Your success makes me question myself.

 

I start again. I know who I need to be to get there. I tell myself this is my last chance. I put everything I have left into it, but I still fail. My confidence is lost. Its further from me than it’s ever been. Is this the end?

 

Sisyphus is a video installation that uses repetition and chance to create a dynamically shifting narrative reflective of one’s path in life. The work consists of a series of short animations of a character (first person perspective) moving through a virtual space. As the character navigates the space, they are constantly confronted with two paths, a correct path leading to a new variation of the current space, and an incorrect path that will restart the character back at the beginning. The path the character chooses is determined by chance using scripted software. With each failure, the character learns from their mistake and will choose the correct path in all future attempts. To further represent the character’s mindset, the camera movement, lighting and soundtrack of the work decays with each attempt. With little failure, Sisyphus can complete relatively unscathed. With constant failure, the damage will become insurmountable, forcing Sisyphus to concede.

 

Music by Jesse Bellon